Intense

This blog is incredibly intense all of the time. I gotta lighten it up a bit aye? I hit Rachel Stewart in the face with a frisbee today. She started bleeding. She made a big deal of it, threatened to pull down my pants, but that's life isn't it? I apologized but I didn't mean it. It was part of the game. That's a light topic right, a girl threating to pull down my pants?

Crash

Crash. I knew it would be a thought provoking movie, but I had no idea how far reaching the effects would be. I'm not sure how good it is on a movie level. It does an impressive job of weaving together a handful of plot lines into one cohensive movie. Yet that is not where the strength of the film lies. The strenght lies in the subject matter, race relations. How often do we judge people based upon their race? How often does this happen without us even noticing, with us accepting it? Far too often, for me at least. Does this make me a bad person? Hell yes. That's the point. We are all bad people, however we want to justify it. We are all one comment away from murder, rape, whatever. It takes one comment that turns you the wrong way, brings up bad memories, to set you off. So what hope is there? What safety net is there from total enragement? God. (pause for laughter) Well it's true. What other reason is there to follow the rules? What other reason is there to live a "good" life?

Too Long

I have to get better at this. There is way too much time between my posts. Well I have been extremely busy....ever since Star Wars. Final days of school, a couple papers, a Bio final, Senior Trip in Colorado, and lots of learningn along the way. With graduation tommorrow, I may finally beginning to miss everything. The reality check came right after Episode III (there is a very good reason, it would just take 20 minutes to explain), but the sadness I avoided for a while. Now it's my first day of freedom, nothing to wake up for, nothing to look forward to, the defintion of a summer day. So I'm not sure I'm sad or just bored. It's probably just boredom, because boredom is sad, but regardless, I am going to miss alot of things. But this is all a lie, because at the same time I'm still extremely excited and ansy. I'm excited to open that new chapter of my life, to become what I'm destined to be (that sounds more epic than it probably will be). This next chapter of my life is quite critical, because this is where all the thoughts and dreams I've ever had have to start materializing or else I'll end up just like everyone else. I've never been like everyone else, and I hope I never am. I mean who else can jump from Coldplay to Jay-Z to Explosions in the Sky to The Streets to Rage against the Machine to Elliot Smith all within one day? If you can find someone than I really have to meet them.